I also hope to get the best from two worlds. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Let's rephrase it in terms more relatable to Occidental audience. By slavic lives I mean all Slavic, around the former Warsaw Pact states and Yugoslavia. Why is this scope important? The answer might be not so hard to comprehend. For just like Americans, esp. on the South, tend to remember times when you were separated by Mason-Dixon line, so we (wherever we happen to live — I haven’t visited Russia for good part of a decade) tend to recall times when we weren't divided. Some folks call such a feeling “imperialistic ressentiment”. That’s mostly wrong, however (excluding freaks of Dugin’s kin). One fresh-off-the-pan example from Belgrade:

Hence, for example, I despise both main sides of the Ukraine war somewhat equally, because the conflict has a very strong rancid flavor of a strictly controlled meat grinder. Russian atrocities in Irpin or Izyum show just the same inhumane colour before my eyes as Ukrainian shellings of Belgorod, Sevastopol, Donetsk, or Lugansk. One might have said that screams of virtuous and wicked sound the same.

And speaking about Biden, yep, I would have wished him, and neocon Dems, to rot in hell, though it seems he's already conversing with some entities unseen here, on Earth; this might be better outcome from both etic and ethic standpoints of view.

Best wishes, though! God save America from another civil war in 2024. A big flotilia of clouds without silver linings looms on the horizon.